Monday, April 30, 2007
WHOARRRRRRR !!!
hmm, tday. MON. nth for me to writ.
normal day. simple.
haha. it was rainin. but stopped le.
quite windy, i shud say.
bus was fast.
reached sch. erm, quite early. so went to coffee shop.
blah blah.
went sch. heng th gate hvn close yet.
so, blah blah blah, went to class.
1st period. D&T. all was tired.
even me, but i duno why im so awak.
so, aidan asked me abt his product.
blah blah blah.
so. aft a whil. wanted to go toliet shh shh. LOLS.
on th way. went to com lab slack. hahas, played, listened to music.
cos insid is th fnn students who had finished their cookins.
tt aidan. dun feel lik talkin abt him. sooooo.....erm, blah-ed luh. =x
ok. blah bluh blah bluh. went bac to dnt room.
cher din ask why we took so long to come back. phew.
thn i asked johnny abt my cutting list.
he blah-ed with me.
ya. tday actually gt harmo de, cos of th duno wat ministry of states come to our sch? LOLS?
he said tt cant stay bac at sch blah blah blah. which is impt, cca or th work? LOLS?
so.....i jus said, ' i dun wan to talk to you '. thn i jus walked away, he kept callin me come.
i jus kept giggling. haha. so funny sia. he wanted to teach me, kept callin me to come.
i jus ignored him whil laughin. HAHAHA. majiam lik he nth to say.
i took my folio. jus walked out of th dnt room secretly.
off to th com lab and PLAY !
LOLS.
math replaced by cme. so shacked. boring. nidda present tt cme proj. so i was clickin th slides.
aft tt is recess. went to class. chatted with sijie.
GEO lesson. erm, cher go thru th test paper. taught us map readin.
POA. completely blah-ed luh.
ENG. erm, alrit. went thru tt compo paper.
aft tt rest. bell ringed. went hm cos gt tt duno wat ministry of states. arrr. who cares.
on th bus. on mp3. blastin music. 30secs to mar and break ben. omg. so high.
they were nt singing. they were screamin. i guess.
completely HIGH. siao sia.
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我现在好想笑哦
可是没有你, 我怎么笑得出 ?
没有人可以像你一样的逗我开心 .
好希望你能逗我笑, 逗我开心
好怀念那些开心的日子
没有你的日子 , 你叫我怎么笑的出来 ?
我要你逗我开心 !!!
可是我想, 你这一走 , 不会再回头了 .---------------------------------------------------
- something that i already know @ 2:34 PM |
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Saturday, April 28, 2007
afternoon.
aww. was supposed to wake up early in th morn, to study.
but guess i stil need some more slp.
so, i slpt until 12+. brushed.
hahas. no harmo tday.
i suddenly missed wakin up early in th morn by a *morn call*
and prepared to go for harmo.
but. there wil be no harmo til th end of mid yr.
i ate my lunch jus nw.
was so full cos i jus scooped it up.
ate while watchin tv. zzz.
i cant moved ard freely with my bloated stomach. =x
and nw, im usin th computer to update my blog.
slackin ard and ard.
ya, you can say tt i dun hv a sense of urgency towards my MYE.
seriously, i oso duno which sub to study first.
lookin at th exam timetable makes me shacked more.
AWW. CAN ANYONE CONVINCE ME TO STUDY ?!spiderman 3 is comin out.
on th labour day. ya. tt's ' GREAT '. cos its th eve of my MYE.
crappy. i feel lik watchin it.
cos of the advertistment tt makes me go WHOA~.
what should i do nw? study or continue to use th com?
dilemma nw. =x duno if th word i used is correct or nt.
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hp meant alot to me in th past. but tt was ' used to '.
i guess it means nth to me nw. no sms. no calls.
i tink i shud jus switch it off or jus throw it away.
but why did i left it ' on ' everyday?
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edited tis pic of a guy walkin. smudgin and sprayin.
one with words, one without words.
so i hope tt tis wil suit my blogskin.
LOLS.
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uploaded breakin ben, 30 sec to mars and FoB songs.
so high. erm, for me?
i hope i
DID NOT '
copy ' some songs frm ppl.
if gt, please kindly tell me and i'll delete it frm my playlist.
but, dont crap tt... ' you copied all my songs '
ya, then u'll make me delete all th songs frm my playlist hor?
*sarcastic*
i dont tink im**m is a gd place to upL**D songs.
cos frm my point of view, they are so called ' attracting ' ppl to upL**D the songs.
you'll nv know when they wil track ur IP add.
cos DL-ing songs are illeg*l. so i dont really ' trust ' them. =x
BEWARE !
- something that i already know @ 2:11 PM |
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Friday, April 27, 2007
tired.
hahas. ytd i didn do my hws. lazy.
so, lols. went to slp first.
thn tday do th compo for 30 mins thn go out for sch liao.
took 157. i saw noredeen. its been a while. LOLS.
i tot i was goin to be late.
but phew, th bus was fast.
went sch. 1st two period is eng.
cher said who din do th compo.
thn she said she gonna left sch at 1220.
mus passup on time if nt she wil nt mark.
in th end, i din passup.
cher gt said some jokes.
laughs in th skies.
LOLS.
math. transformation and locus test.
anyhw do.
phy. cher talk talk.
recess. nth much.
i tot gt spot check. sian sia. nxtim cant bring mp3. but i really wanna bring.
if nt whn i board th bus. i'll be bored to death. argh.
cme. one period of continued math. i din finis th paper on time.
another period is for th cme proj stuff.
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[ sry for vulgars =D ]
ya. kinda pissed. seepei gt great courage to stand up ther and present.
yet th rest of th guys kept sort of mocked her?
ya right. wtf. =x
tho her voice is real soft. but u'll jus cant mock her lik tt.
in fact, whn she's talkin, u'll oso talkin ar.
giv no respect.
hw would u guys feel whn u'll present,
and we tok th hell out among ourself lik no body's business?
ya. tt feelin blah-ed.
everytim kajiao ppl, btbj anyh go disturb ppl.
u tink everyone lik u'll dun wanna study ar?
hello guys. MYE n O's comin.
be more mature. and nt childish.
ya. sometimes we are makin ourself lunatics due to boreness.
but whn it comes to seriousness. pls do be serious.
oh. grow up pls~. u all are actin lik kids.
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chi. do mock. kinda erm, great? or nt so great. haas. no comment abt chi.
aft sch. went to makan with kit n th rest.
MYE comin le. less than A WEEK. and im slackin nw !
gosh. is no time for me to study de lor.
"GREAT" LUH~!
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i wondr hw wud u react if u c tt long post.
i hope u dun c it. =)
ya. ur fone kena confiscated. by whom? i duno.
i was gonna ask u. but in th end. i didnt. cos i duno hw to ' talk '.
aft a whil, u typed. ' smile more hors '
hw do u expect me to smile nw whn u're nt ard?
or shud i giv a fake smile in return to pretend tt im alrit in fact im nt?
- something that i already know @ 4:30 PM |
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Thursday, April 26, 2007
hmm. blah.
crappin nw. tis few days, i've been v tired. duno why. LOLS.
alrit. MYE comin soon. so, i told dajie n mum tt i might fail th whole examination.
i got a gd scoldin frm them. i dun tink i might be able to mak it.
cos, 1wk, i cant revis everything in jus a wk ! gosh.
so even if i fail all my subs. im nt rilly surprise at all.
ytd came hm, used com, chatted.
i almst made ' jie ' angry sia.
i said i dun wan study, no time for me to study cos MYE comin le.
she said then what are you doin now.. stil can chat..
yup. she's almst angry.
told her tt i do my hw nw, and i logged off.
went to take my eng paper.
doin halfway while lying on my bed.
feel lik dozing off.
dajie came in, disturbed me, asked me faster do.
i said i very tired. i wanted to slp.
blah blah blah.
so she forked out time. read th eng passage and explained to me wat it means.
i almst slpt while she was explainin.
do til halfway, i really felt lik slpin lor.
so she kept hittin me. LOLS.
and in th end, i really buay tahan liao.
i said let me slp first, later thn i'll do.
SOOO. I SLPT TILL TH NX DAY !
i din revise my chem. so i tink i will fail.
wakup. prepared. off to sch. it was rainin. yaa. GREAT !
i almst gt wet but thanks to JJ, and his umbrella. WAHAHAS
first two periods. CHI. went to MLC !
FUN SIA. AIR CON. somemore cher wan us to do CHINESE BLOGGING.
so. MUSIC IN TH AIR !
she said, want jiu put chi music, but i on eng music.
tis is th best man~ usually we were nt allowed to on music
even cher oso on her chi music in th blog.
LOLS.
blah blah blah. PE time. nth much.
acutally nt much happened in sch.
i jus dun hv th feelin to concentrate in class.
so hwks cher gav, i will either slpt on th table, or slack ard.
its nt tt i hv no mood. its dun hv u ard and ur encouragement plus motivation.
so chem test, i wasnt concentratin. was restin my head on my hands.
tick tack tick tack. anyhw do lor.
do slowly. do fast. anyhw do.
hahas. so dumb.
shall update nxtim if i've gt th time.
nt sure abt it cos of MYE. shacked !
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you might think tt im th one who is ignorin you right nw.
im nt ignoring.
i jus duno hw to face you, tt's all.
i duno whether to smile or to be normal.
i jus wanted to care.
but i dun hv th quanli and zhige le !
我了解到
默默等待的心多痛...
事情发生了这么突然, 我来不及后悔...
发生后, 我后悔也已来不及...
- something that i already know @ 4:53 PM |
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Monday, April 23, 2007
HER
THIS IS A VERY LONG POST !
please don't bother to read !
i know i shudnt be writing tis post.
but i jus cant swallow it.
i wanna tell her hw im feelin rite nw.
i wanna express my feelins.
[tho she doesnt know i hv tis blog.]
did you notice it has been rainin for a few days?
yup. this is hw im feelin rite nw.
seeing you, i felt my heart in real pain. ouch. =(
cos u hv someone who can take good care of you.
tt time, i doesnt know anyt abt it,
cos i din went to ur blog for a v v long time.
tt time i was chattin wif you on th msn.
i realised tt something was amiss,
u usually talked alot.
but nw, it seemed so lil.
so lil tt it almst became ' nth else to chat wif you '.
[roughly recapped on wat we chatted, may nt be words by words]
so, i asked you : ' why you tt time slp so late? '.
you said : ' cos they in th middle of th nite sms me mah. '.
me : ' oh, sms who? stead ar? '.
you : ' lame. '.
me : ' i dun find it lame ar. '.
you : ' lame, lame, lame. '.
me : ' ask you sth ar. '.
you : ' wat? '.
me : ' who you lik? '.
you : ' dun tell you. '.
me : ' alrit alrit. '.
at th same time,
i kept changin my nick lik -
' see it burnin in my eyes ',
' nt knowin anyt ',
blah blah blah.
nt until ' jie ' told me tt you gt stead.
i went to read ur blog.
my heart sank.
i was so DUMB to ask you tt q's in th beginnin lor.
im so STUPID !
ever since tt day, you didnt look at me,
you jus ignored me as if im completely invisible in ur eyes.
you didnt smile at me for th whole day.
you...jus changed completely.
so fast. so fast...so fast tt i couldnt believe it.
i've alrdy made up my mind to face tt q's if you asked me who i like.
and whn i am tryin all my might to face it, you had a stead le.
i was late. too late.
you tagged on my taggyboard tt time, it was alrite.
what abt now? IGNORES.
i kept lookin at you, but u jus dun wanna look.
at sch, i jus cant concentrate on my wks.
kept tinkin abt it. cant pay attention.
tt nite, i kept tinkin abt how we were goin well for a long long time.
but nw, it jus completely different frm nw.
ya i noe.
past is th past.
we cant dwell in th past.
i wanna forget too ar.
but my liking for you had NV been changed for th past 3yrs.
those memories, those smiles, those looks.
how could you ask me to forget?
3yrs...its so deep inside my mind.
its too hard for me to forget even if i wan to.
i kept reminiscence all th mmrs we had before.
th promises i made to you.
th mornin calls,
th miss calls,
th smiling frm each other without fail everyday,
laughs,
long chats on phone calls...
gougoushou...
tt particular day, 150306...
tt organiser you wrote last yr,
its stil with you rite nw...
alot n alot more.
even if i cried, will you ever notice it?
when you're in class laughin and smilin.
i jus duno how to react.
shud i be happy cos you're happy nw?
or shud i be sad cos its ovr nw?
i've been doin alot of soul-seaching for alot of days,
' jie ' said, let it go, let it all go...
i jus couldnt ! ='(
' jie ' oso said, dun be sad cos its ovr, be happy cos it happened.
i stil rmb FRI,
you ignored me for th whole day,
SAT, you cried alot of time
cos you dun noe how to move along with th music.
you are being embarressed by mdm peng
and swapped places.
did you know, whn you are cryin,
my heart is in PAIN !
i offered you a pack of tissue paper to wipe ur tears frm ur face
while th rest of th 1ST HIGH comforted you.
in th end. you ignored me again.
all i got is, jus A SMILE frm ur face durin break time.
you know wat...THAT HURTS !
i smsed you sayin tt
you can do it, belive, bu yao ku le,
if nt gt wrinkles.
i even sent it 2 times with diff messenges.
ur eyes were SO RED.
i told you to go to toliet to hv a wash on ur face.
whn i went hm,
i felt hurt again.
cos i guess i knew wat happened.
jus tak tday for example.
YHHB went for SFY.
on th way ther. you smiled at me.
alot.
you helped me make my collar.
at th Singapore Conference Hall,
you even gav me a pat on my shoulder
and said jiayou.
you DIDN done tt before.
is it becos tday is SFY.
so u did tis?
again, you know whn u smiled at me,
i duno wat it meant alrdy.
are you lettin me assumin tt you are happy and xinfu nw?
or are you tryin to cheer me up?
i dun understand.
i jus dun.
yup, we'd been prayin hard today,
hopin tt YHHB can get another GOLD WITH HONOUR.
but in th end, YHHB got GOLD.
ya, i knew u almst cried, u jus wiped it off quickly only.
aft tt, at sch, again,
whn i looked at you, you jus ignored.
whn band had been released, i came out,
i saw him waitin for you.
sobs.
i took 187 bus, it went across th CC ther,
i saw you,
and th gals,
and him.
='(
i guess he's sendin you hm bah?
th day whn i knew i've lost you.
my miserable days starts.
no more smiles frm you.
no more looks frm you.
no more chats frm you.
no more phone calls frm you.
no more smses frm you
no more encouragement frm you.
no more motivation frm you.
no more hotmails frm you.
th person you smiled at is nt me.
th person you looked at is nt me.
th person you chatted with is nt me.
th person you phone calls to is nt me.
th person you smsed is nt me.
th person you encouraging is nt me.
th person you motivated is nt me.
th person you wanted to send you hm is nt me.
th person you hotmail-ed to is nt me.
i jus wanna worry abt you.
i jus wanna care for you.
i jus wanna be there for you.
i jus wanna take care of you.
i jus wanna make you laugh.
i jus wanna make you smile.
hv you forgotten th mmrs we once had?
hv you forgotten th day 150306?
hv you forgotten th promises?
hv you forgotten we used to smile at each other without fail?
hv you forgotten th encouragement and motivation we gav each other?
hv you forgotten th long phone chats even if it was exam time?
hv you forgotten those day tt i sent you hm?
hv you forgotten th hotmails in ur inbox?
hv you forgotten th dabendannnnn and shagua?
hv you? hv you? hv you?
you're th one who can make me smile.
you're th one who can make me laugh.
you're th one who can make me sad.
you're th one who can make me cry.
you're th one who give me memories.
bcos of you, i know hw to smile.
bcos of you, i know hw to laugh.
bcos of you, i know hw to cry.
bcos of you, i know hw to be happy.
bcos of you, i learnt many things.
bcos of you, i know alot of things.
without you, everything seems bland.
without you, i duno hw to smile.
without you, i duno hw to laugh.
without you, i duno hw to be happy.
without you, i duno anything.
without you, life is meaningless.
i guess you would say,
' you duno wat hurts is cos you didnt stead before '
ya, i do hv feelings too. i do cry. i cried for you.
i was jus waitin for a day to say th 4 words.
th words i've been longing to say to you.
well, its too late nw.
i stil rmb th taggy you wrote.
we said START EVERYTING AFRESH !
='(
extremely sad.
you said you gav me another chance.
i guess, i mis-used it.
i dun hav a chance nw.
nw you're gone.
my soul is lost.
im stucked.
im lost.
i duno which direction to go.
i duno whther to move forwards or backwards,
i duno wat to do.
i need you.
i need you to guide me.
i rilly need you so much.
i need your motivation and encouragement.
i've been missin you lately every day and nite.
longing tt you would sms me.
longing tt you would call me.
cryin in my pillow.
makin it wet in th nite.
a long time ago.
my heart broke into million pieces by you.
million pieces fell onto th floor.
i kept walking and walking.
hoping tt i could find th million pieces.
i kneeled down and pick it up.
with my own bare hands.
i walked again.
picked it up again.
i've fell before.
all th pieces frm my hands dropped onto th flr.
i was hurt by th million pieces.
my hands were scratched by th million pieces.
blood started to drip out.
i stood up.
i picked it up again as i walked on.
nw, i fell again.
i hate you.
i hate myself even more.
whnever i tink of th mmrs.
i cried.
i told myself to hold back my tears if possible.
sometimes i do. sometimes i dont.
seeing you xinfu kuaile,
i duno whther to be happy or nt.
my presences ard seems nth to you at all.
here i am longing, for you.
but did you even notice my presence?
or are you pretending not to notice?
我 想 那 人 已 不 再 是 我 . ='(
懂 得 让 我 微 笑 的 人
再 没 有 谁 比 你 有 天 分
懂 得 让 我 流 泪 的 人
给 的 感 动 一 定 是 最 深
在 我 心 中 留 下 伤 痕everyone had been yearnin for tis day.
' if i can go back to th past, i will... '
but, it wil nv happen.
my chances are ovr.
i duno wat to do rite nw.
i guess i will NV be with you again.
eventhou im hoping.
jus a foolish thought.
once you walked away, u wont turn back le.
i jus knew u wont come back le.
我 只 是 你 生 命 中 的 小 记 忆 ...
guess i was right after all.
i didn noe u meant so much to me.
u're gone.
u left my world in grey.
i cant smile without u.
i jus cant.
even if gt, it's jus a false one.
every sms contains one memory.你 的 快 乐 我 可 以 感 受 得 到 ...
我 曾 经 有 过 一 段 美 好 的 回 忆 . :')
u stil noe hw to mak me smile usin sms.
ya. i admit i smiled.
but wat happen after tt?
we watched each other grew up?
we watched each other changed?
we watched each other walked away?
you jus duno wat im tinkin everytime.
even if u knew. u shud know why.
even if i tried to forget those mmrs,
i knew i cant forget.
cos i guess it was suppose to be ther.
it was meant to be ther.
no matter how hard you tried.
you jus cant get it off ur head.
becos...it was meant to be ther.
mayb i jus dun hv th courage to say it out bah.
i wan to try but i guess its too late nw.
im in no position to ask you watever i wanna ask you.
cos th person who hv th position is him.
nt me.
im jus a dabendan !
dabendannnnn !
- something that i already know @ 6:55 PM |
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