stupid.

if you read this post,
can you tell me how you feel?
what's going on?

- something   that i already know @ 5:58 PM |

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thursday is SO BORING.

thy come by and go, never appreciate. :x

- something   that i already know @ 3:58 PM |

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im bored.

我不想舍得 不想懂得

- something   that i already know @ 5:37 PM |

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a monday night.

i dont need to come school. :) delighted.

- something   that i already know @ 8:08 PM |

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blah

you are the best, always!

remember this.

- something   that i already know @ 4:50 PM |

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please.

I SWEAR TO GOD THAT EVERYTHING IS TRUE ALL ALONG!
i dont know how to tell liao le. :'(
if only you knew what am i thinking.
i wont be blogging anymore.

- something   that i already know @ 1:49 PM |

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hmmm.

1. The person who tagged u is: joycelyn
2. Your relationship with him/her is: FRIENDS!
3. Your 5 impressions of him/her: quiet, humor? talkative? what's the other 2? hmm.
4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you: chat in msn till late night? or sms? :x memory loss.
5. The most memorable words that he/she had said to u: eh, i dont know leh.
6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will? : nope.
7. If he/she is your lover, what he/she has to improve on: same-old-her.
8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will? : lose one friend. :(
9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason is: it wont happen. :)
10. The most desire thing you would like to do for him/her now is? : FIX PC LOR! :x
11. Your overall impression of him/her: a good friend to chat with, of cos. :)
12. How do you think people around u will feel about you: under some kind of depression, im not, i just dont like to talk. that's all.
13. The character u love about yourself is: quiet, sorting out stuffs and finding answers!!!
14. On the contrary, what character u hate about yourself: the-one-who-always-miss-things-out.
15. The most ideal person I would like to be: i want to be the same-old-me. NEVER CHANGE! :D
16. For the people who cared & liked you say something to them: im alright, im not suffering from some sort of depression. LOLS. zzz.
17. Pass this quiz to 10 people. Hey, please do k? Its quite fun though its long. Thanks (:
anyone who wish to do this. cos i dont have much linkies here. :)

Who's #2 having relationship with:
Is #9 a female/male:
If #1 & #10 be together, will it be a good thing:
How about #3 & #4:
#2 studying about:
When was the last time you chatted with #3:
What kind of music does # 8 like:
#6 has any siblings? :
Will u woo # 3? :
How about #7?:
Is #4 single:
Surname of #5:
What’s the hobby of #5:
#3 studying at:
Have u try developed feelings for #8? :
Where does #9 live:
What colour does #4 like:
Is #1 & #3 best friend:
Does #7 like #2?
How do you know #2.:
Does #5 has pet:
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- something   that i already know @ 11:04 PM |

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tired.

ok. today got science practical. 1st shift. and mr tan said that, we must wait until the 3rd shift before we can go home. 3 shift = 12.00pm plus release. practical ends at 9.30am. aww. i slept in the hall for hours. he should have said earlier ma~ last minute say. zzz. during the practical, i didnt read the question properly, it say must add sodium hydroxide if im not wrong. i read wrongly, i add dilute nitric acid. no wonder there's no residue. zzz. started to panick. cos 20cm-cube of sodium hydroxide. and there's only a fixed amount of dilute acid. i added 20cm-cube of dilute acid, luckily there's some more left. chemistry practical is such nuisance. :x physic is much easier. after school, went to do NE quiz. went back home. bathe. slept a lil. woke up. went to watch ratatouille. it's a nice movie overall. graphic is nice. sound effect are real. RATS ! hahaha, after that shopped around. shop shop shop. went home. and ta-da. im using the pc. i realised my memory is deproving. very much. sms that people had send me, i read it and replied. guess what? i dont know what they typed in the sms and i dont know what im replying. piang. ridiculous. so tired. i wanna sleep. hmm, ONCE A GOOD GUY, ALWAYS A GOOD GUY. ;)

i knew what's gonna happen soon. i surrender le. =(
那4个字，我只想对你说。
many, are to be said, but were left unspoken.

樱桃帮　你爱我吗

你爱我吗　你是爱我的吧
未来真的很长　如果你不愿意回答
最后我会再问你一次　你爱我吗

从前我们走过的地方　像是一幅幅美丽的画
曾经那些天真的梦想　是不是只能是童话
为什么我们变成这样　拿著电话却说不出话
或许眼泪不让它流下　就好像不那么悲伤

你爱我吗　你是爱我的吧
当你眼睛低下　低下头不说一句话
你爱我吗　你是爱我的吧　
未来真的很长　如果你不愿意回答
最后我会再问一次　你爱我吗
为什么变得如此沉默　回忆我们最初的承诺
就让那些浪漫的所有　都消失成黑色天空

你爱我吗　你是爱我的吧
当你眼睛低下　低下头不说一句话
你爱我吗　你是爱我的吧
未来真的很长　如果你不愿意回答
你爱我吗　你是爱我的吧
未来真的很长　如果你不愿意回答
最后我会再问一次　你爱我吗

- something   that i already know @ 9:04 PM |

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STUPID !!!

ok. today i was sooo "dumb" to take my poa pp lor. went into the examination hall, sat at my chair, and do that POA PAPER ! i was doing at first, and sleeping next. i slept for 1h30mins. i was sitting on the chair, sleeping like a pig. shouldnt have come. a waste of my time. next is the d&t pp. i didnt go, cos if i go, i might hand in blank pp too. so i went home...and sleep.
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im tired. im tired of everything. i put down everything and walk away. everything. i want to sleep. a long sleep. study? haha. bet not. since mum so sure that im gonna go ite. comes what may. if parents know about my results, that would be cool lor. ground me for everything. better lock me inside the house, so that i wont be going to the school. anyway, just treat me as if i dont exist. in fact, i dont really exist. =.="

many, are suppose to be said, but were left unspoken. :'(

如果时间可以倒流的话，我要做我未做的事情，就不会变成这个样子了。

I FEEL VEXED !

最后我会再问你一次。。。

- something   that i already know @ 5:30 PM |

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update update. zzz.

i dont know what to update. ok, talk about my modem. my dajie, she went to change it. #$%#$%#. why? cos the starhub can use, then her stupid lappy, got problem, cant linked. so, she went to change it. guess what she said when i asked her, why did you change the modem. she said, cannot connect ma, somemore got promotion. what heck. zzz. and guess what she change the modem to, MIO !!! piang. i was sooo %$#%#$. so troublesome she is. and i guess the speed is 54MBps. SO SLOW. i dont know about the speed. but i recently learnt how to make internet speed faster. and then she changed it. waste money and time. i dont really trust MIO, althou it's Singtel. see the name already know it's not a good thing. lols.

hmm, something interesting. i read the newpaper. and saw this article. jurong west st 41 blk 430, near the temple, got a tree. people recently "worship" one. the tree is called somewhat "monkey tree" ? the article also state that, the bottom of the tree have 3 monkey figures there, SHAPED on the tree. 1 big monkey, 2 small monkey. weird uh? somemore it's near the temple...

im back blogging. just came back from grocery shopping. zzz. nothing much, mum asked me to help her buy some things. off i went. and when i bought eh kaya? a 20+ teenager in the stall called me didi. LOLS?! i look like a didi meh? my face look like a child eh? omg. hmm, i shall update tmr.
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空虚的等待

- something   that i already know @ 5:49 PM |

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那一秒钟 有没有发现我 倔强里的问候?

i cant use the pc for long. so SMS me, or give me a PHONE CALL.....if there's anything impt. :)

ok. let's talk about today. i went for phy/chem p1. and i went home instead of doing emath p2. zzz. becos, im sick, or having a slight fever. i was tired, "shivering" while doing the phy/chem p1. i kept looking at the clock, hoping it would end quickly. at last, it ended. i went home immidiately. should have taken the mrt. stupid. i took the bus instead. i was too worn out to listen to my mp3. sat in the bus, slpt. the bus's engine is so loud. somemore, there's a guy, so irritating, he was listening to TRANCE. that is defined as NOISE. same goes to TECHNO. it was very noisy. somemore i was slping and he was playing TRANCE. zzz. i cant even slp. cos never listen to "noise" while you're slping. it's terrifiying. TRANCE also not like trance, seems more like indian trance, i should say. i alighted from the bus stop. still must walk a long long way. and i dont feel like walking. reached home, i was like so siao liao. erjie and mum at home. i was too tired to bother about these things. so i went to slp instead of bathing. haha. so unhygience. guess what, i reached home at about 9.45am. and i slpt till 7.00+++pm. my dad kept waking me up, i think im dead, cos i replied him in short sentences. and i feel so lifeless. my lips were so dry that i can hardly speaks. he touched my forehead, wondering if i am sick. but in the end, he said nothing. zzz. i was sick. but nvm, it's ok now. man~ i wanna do emath p2. :( crapped. forget it. i also write crap inside. haha. gtg.

那一秒钟 有没有发现我 倔强里的问候?

- something   that i already know @ 8:56 PM |

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我想要說 MV

我想要說 MV. :)

- something   that i already know @ 2:24 PM |

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如果没有了你，我该如何往下走?

i've got no mood to blog for today.
firstly, i think i cant use the pc le. so, anything just sms, or give a call.
once again, im sorry, to my parents. i've got no choice but to disappoint you both once more.
i shall make it short and simple.

today, i did my emath, and skipped my chem. what a silly thing to do. i didnt revise chem, go there is just "wasting" my time. if i do the paper, it's even worst, i might hand in blank paper only. seriously, talking about this, i dont really feel like going for the rest of my prelim's paper.
i really really dont feel studying. people dislike uneducated people. and people without future.
well, come on and despise me. i dont care. happy liao ma?

i've been very tired these few days, eyes were tired when i looked at the monitor and so-called study. want to sleep, also cannot. been having slpless night. when it really comes to sleep, i will sleep for many many hours, as in the whole day. and never wake up. if i've got a choice right now, i would prefer not to live. it's better, right? ya, there's rights and wrongs. it depends on the situation.

i wanna go somewhere, where i can shout, real loud. shout out all my frustration.
i cannot go independent yet. not now.


everything here. im dead serious about it. its from my heart. how i feel right now.
was supposed to "mug" for chem.
in the end, i cried again ytd. stupid. :'(
it reminds me of the past again.
and it reminds me of that letter.
不知不觉, i started to take out that piece of letter, you wrote, i've once read.
at first, i didnt want to read again.
but i started to unfold it, and read it line by line, every single word.
i came by this sentence, "knowing the fact that you're not my dabendan, is a fact le."
i f*cking cry again.
this time, its very long.
do you rmb, that time you smsed, " give me an answer from your heart pls. "
if i didnt create these ridiculous, immature messes, nothing would have happened.
and now, no smses from you anymore. i was hoping that you would sms me some day.
but, there was none. the time we used to sms each other every single day.
and i told you that, dont waste sms, if not nextime you cannot sms impt stuffs.
tze hwa. please come to your senses.
face the reality.
she cant be with you, no matter how hard you try.
she cant. SEE THIS! SHE CANT!!!
tze hwa: " im sorry, i cant face the reality... "
i never thought i would end up like this.
in such a pathetic state.
if it wasnt me, everything would have gone smoothly, just like the past.
as if nothing had happened.
and now, i am not happy.
100 percent NOT.
kill me. please. let my sorrows all die with me.
i should have let it go, we should not have talk to each other when we're sec2.
we might not know each other if im not in that school.
you're not hurting me now. maybe it just me, who is hurting myself even deeper.
and i never like someone for that long, and seriously before.
我还是那么地傻傻的等。
shagua~ :'(

no one was there. no one...
我现在不知道该怎么做了了。我好像没有什么选择似的。我现在好难受。 你知道吗? 忽然间，我弄到一切都变了，我自己也无法接受。永远都无法接受 ! 我还有问题想问你。。。

- something   that i already know @ 11:11 AM |

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nothing.

ytd like didnt slp at all. cant slp. so tired yet cannot slp. zzz. today i shall not update any stuffs.

this is a msg. deep in my heart. btw, this is not a ending-of-life msg. so dont be astonished. :)

my apologies to my family. firstly to dad and mum. i know you both have expectations on me. but im afraid that i cant fulfill what im supposed to do now. that is to get into a poly. both of you said that dont follow your jiejies' footstep for umpteen times. i just turn a deaf ear to it. even cousin have shown concern about me. i just dont know what to say. i cant make a name for myself, and for the family. im not yet mature to take care of myself.

to dad, im sorry, i know i always do you wrong, to make you angry, but you will always close one eye, as if everything is alright, but it's not. maybe you just dont wanna say it out. :(

and to mum, you always scold me not taking the advices you have said. i know im not a filial son. NEVER say a thank you or sorry to you both face to face. and...you knew i dont wanna go school...you kept scolding me, in the end, you just say softly and adviced me to go. the reason i always use is, to overslept, so dont need to go school. you've been covering this issue away from dad. everytime when dad comes home and he sees me didnt go school, i tio whacked by him. in the end, you get scolded for nothing. i have no choice, but to wear my school uniform, step out of the house, and wander ard instead of going to school. this is the worst year. the attendence is going to be the worst i can ever get in my 4yrs. you always talk nicely to me, yet i shouted at you for no reasons. :'( we quarrelled in the end. duibuqi.

my dajie. i know you dote me the most. buy clothes for me. anything. i wanted to go to a poly. you asked me to work hard, if you dont work hard, how are you going to get into a poly? sometimes, i will quarrel with you when something happens. but you will give in to me everytime. those fights. i know im silly. you even bought me chocolate to eat. when i need help in whatever stuffs, you will scold me for last minute work, then help me in doing. :)

my erjie. i didnt talk much to you. i knew we fought when we were young. we dont talk much to each other. seriously. so, im sorry if i got do something wrong to you.

i love my family. :) cheers.


there are stuffs i haven done yet. i cant possibly pass my o-level with flying colors, i supposed.

thou im not a christian.
but i want to say this.

i cried.
not for my o-level.
but everything.
now.
nothing seems alright, without...you.

if only god can hear my cry and give me advices.
if only god is there when i cant find anyone to talk to.
if only god can help me in everything.
if only god is by my side when im feeling lonely.
if only god can bring me outta this world.

如果时间可以倒流，我想回到从前，从头开始。

如果你现在过得很开心，就别回头了。 :'(
那些 "东西" 已对你来说，不重要了。
可是，它们对我来说，非常重要。

知道这是不可能的，可是，我还是傻傻地等。。。
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蔡昮佑 - 我想要说

看着右手被撕裂的伤口
爱好像曾经停留
而我左手按下号码之后
那首属于我的歌不再播送

默写你的爱过
坦承自己脆弱
对白怎么说
表情才不难过

我想要说
如果没有了你
我该如何往下走
那一秒钟 有没有发现我
倔强里的问候
怎么劝我放手
在这一切之后

整夜的风冷得我手颤抖
你在温暖的那头
熟悉路口再一次的路过
等在那角落的人已不是我

默写你的爱过
坦承自己脆弱
对白怎么说
表情才不难过

我想要说
如果没有了你
我该如何往下走
那一秒钟 有没有发现我
倔强里的问候
怎么劝我放手
在这一切之后

我想要说
如果没有了你
我该如何往下走
那一秒钟 有没有发现我
倔强里的问候
怎么劝我放手
在这一切之后

怎么劝我放手
在这一切

- something   that i already know @ 11:13 AM |

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slacking.

19 more hours to the social studies paper. haven even revise anything. zzz. just dl-ed yangchengling and fanweiqi album and 1 song. haven listen yet. anyway, i wanna sleep. shall update later in the night. byes.
"who cares?!"
ya.

im back. updating again. nothing to do. o-level is in a month time. waa. help me. :(

im back again. SIAN! i dont wanna study liao. that's final. i cant believe i was defeated by those undefined stuffs. stupid. it's too late to continue. i dont care what people thinks about me. and i dont wanna hear any more stuffs. im giving up on this stupid journey. idiot. say whatever. i dont care.

- something   that i already know @ 1:38 PM |

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bore-dom.

ok. i have the thought of not coming to school on monday. cos i didn revise my social studies. yah, "great"~~. well, i cant even get a single thing into my head. and there's alot to study. im starting to get pressurized. when i get pressurized, i will have the thought of no coming to school. but who cares? teachers dont care anymore. they only focus on the good students who are willingly to study. im not that students. who gives a damn to me, right? LOLS. ok stop my crap.

went to joycelyn's house. just to fix her pc. zzz. suan-ing session : game only ma. concentrate on o-level first. later play too much, will get hooked de. anyway, i got her audition to be fixed. her monitor is 19-inch. omg. monitor too big, graphic will blur. overall her cpu is almost the same detail as mine. while fixing, played her didi's psp. I WANT TO HAVE A PSP !!! WHOEVER BUY IT FOR ME WILL GET A HUG ! nvm, i will get it sooner or later. her didi look like someone in our school. like very guai. somemore he doesnt look so naughty. after fixing, went home to have my dinner.

tmr, i have to go out again. zzz. everyday go out. it's great. cos i dont need to study. :x so boring. but who cares. lols. school's re-open on monday. hope teachers' dont catch the student's hair. for goodness sake. "concentrate on o-level, not concentrate on appearance!!!" =.=!

chi hwa hwa. tua siar. chi hwa hwa. tua siar. chi hwa hwa hwaaaaa~~
ji lang ji puar, gan qin-er buay suar, ji lang ji su gu, gan qin-er jia eh ku~~
wei li xin luan, wei li tia tang...
zzz. sian. ta-ta.

how are you? it's been a long time. :'( 我不知道该说什么才好。。。

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im back updating. cos i cant focus in social studies. piang eh. so im back. yah. nothing much to update leh. after prelim still must go out. wtheck. i wanna go out. and i seriously dont wanna study leh. but haiyo. cant even focus. no matter how hard i try, how hard i concentrate, how hard i put in my best effort, it wont work out de. actually i dont really put in effort luh. nvm. when one cant focus, one might give up this trip, it's useless. i mean, there's nothing one can do when one cant focus. really. you see. everyone is near the peak liao. im at the bottom. saddening. i kept hearing the same old phrases, by my parents, my elder sisters, friends, or whoever peeps asking me to mug, it's for your own good. get into poly. dont follow the footsteps same as your sisters. your the only son in this house. dont let your cousin disappointed with you. work hard, the gain is yours. work hard, get good results, papa buy you a laptop. work hard, dajie buy you a psp. F*CK!!! i cannot FOCUS! see the word? FOCUS! F-O-C-U-S, FOCUS!!! what the h*ll do you want me to do? sit down and stare at the subjects and study eh? it's useless de. next yr, the syllabus changed. i wanna go 4N, also quite a ridiculous request. stupid stupid stupid. urgh. peer's influence, i dont believe in such things. i dont believe in much things. i just wanna slack and decay at home. that's all. and now, i feel like going to that particular person, and say the word, F*CK YOU! and point the middle finger at that person. dont get offended. cos im referring to a baby or a kid or a boy or a teen or a guy or a male. =) lame.

dont be mistaken, im not angry typing this post. just a lil bit gone nuts. dont bother me. im crazy one. its 12am. yawn.

- something   that i already know @ 9:54 PM |

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today & YESTERDAY !

let's me talk about today. went to study at mac near shuqun sec with haoxiang. she taught me chem. so hard. :( after a while, zhiyang msg me, asking me whether wanna go watch 881. last minute asked me. there was grey clouds, heng, i took the bus and off to mrt station. off to marina square. met them. watched. touching, funny. and there were 3 girls, sitting in front of us. laughed and laughed. talk among themselves. must appreciate the movie lar. then talk talk talk. some more the 3 girls are GROWN UP. piang. be more sensible luh. i wanted to cry, but those immature-grown-up girls, spoilt the atmosphere. in the end, kaos, stupid lar. spoil the mood. drop this topic. after watching, went off to arcade. spent little on tekken5. must stopped myself from wasting so much $ on arcade liao. but mostly, of cos, i win luh. STEVE. hahahas. ok. serious. went home. ta-da, and now im blogging.

i wanna go 4N. i rather learn in a slower pace than a faster pace. i should have gone into 4N earlier in the sec1. but teacher said, got chance jiu let him take express. so, i am in express till now. and it's so dumb. dumb dumb dumb. zzz. i've already paid the fees for the o-level papers. so there's no choice for me. bo bian. but counting the days decreasing. i still dont know. not even a single thing. overall, everyone is the same, just that they learn slower than others. doesnt mean that they are stupid or what-so-ever. i dont care whether they say i have no future or what. who cares? most of the parents usually dont want their son or daughter to follow their footsteps.

anyway, im rebellious too. i dont go for remedials. and, i break promises too. and im that bad. all the way bad. btw, who cares, right?

是你吗 ?

06/09/2007 - Thursday. including pictures.
hmm, on the pc. weikang came my hs. my honor to let weikang see the skeleton of my cpu. i was fixing it in the morning. zzz. anyway, i was SUPPOSED to wear black. but my black tee havent wash yet. bo bian. i wore the long sleeve black. dots. went to gombak mrt. we were late. saw the girls. sebast was the last to reached. off to cineleisure. chatted along in the mrt. sebast didnt change at all. still the same, just that he taller abit only ma. and like to talkcock too. chat and chat and chat. i was stunned by sebast. felt like swinging my fist and punch him right into his face. LOLS. alight the mrt. walked to cineleisure. ate. then went to see huixian's watch. in the end, they cant find it. so went all the way down. funny incident on the way down in the lift. blah blah blah. walked to far east. the girls shop and shop. we 3 guys went ard. sebast wanted to sit down and slp, so let him slp lor. went 'guy shopping' with wk. i cant find my stuffs. urgh. walked back. sat down. 3 emo guys? no way. just that you girls are shopping girl stuffs. and the guy stuffs are very less. so we sat there, waiting for you girls to finish shopping lor. every girl is the same, when it comes to shopping, woah, jialat HAHA!

went off to paragon. sebast went home along the way. it always been like this. never change at all. still the same old him. the girls were busy talking. their mouth wont suan de. in the paragon, they went to eat icecream. wk and i went wandering ard paragon. into sony shop. sat and slacked. played psp. ps3 graphic is good. HD some more. saw a kid playing midnight something de. i wanted to drive too. but, i cannt bully that kid ma. am i right? im very good de. :x just that people dont really realise it. out of the sony shop. went to adidas shop. see cardigan and wind breaker. very nice. after that went down to find the girls. drank club soda. yucks. it's TASTELESS AND BITTER. add lime also useless. the girls took photos again. zzz. girls jiu shi zhe yang. go out of the shop also take. haiyo. discussed and off we went to vivo. and i was supposed to go to the shop that sells pc stuffs. in the end, i didn gooooo. aww man! went to the rooftop. some rest. some took pictures again. zzz. then kinda sian. so wanna go arcade see if got tekken5 or not. saw a dog on the rooftop. wtheck. im scared of dogs. luckily it didnt bite me. hohoho. went in, its colddd. that place so lao ya. not tekken5, only tekken3. i played 2 coins hor. i very guai, i didnt waste money. so easily to play. cant get to the last stage. almost lei~.

went out of arcade. off to the some-where-near-the-arcade. a big hall? or stadium-type-like. again, the girls took pictures again. zzz. take ar take, take ar take, they started to neglect the 2 guys. wk sat on the long bench. i lied down and slpt. after that, woke up. and the girls are still photographing. actually i didnt slp that much lar. rest only. lols. they requested me to take photo. in the end, also no SMALL TIPS de. so heartless. then they wanted to take EMO. black and white. so we took also lor. wk's photography skill so good. got that ray of light. mine also not bad. take and take. after that went home by taking bus 188. blasting music on the way home. me and wk should have sent huixian till choa chu kang before going home. cos we dont wanna go home so early. but we alighted the bus just before we knew we dont wana go home so early. zzz. too late. was under wk's blk ard 12+. and we thought of going to the rooftop and chat, but rooftop is closed. too bad. sian luh. then we chatted and chatted. till 1+. SO EARLY! went home, its creepy althou im a guy. rushed home. bathed. and on the pc, getting pics. chatting. took quite less cos the girls. lols. mostly dad woke up suddenly, and it was ard 2.30 or 3+. luckily i didnt get a scolding from him. so i went to slp. and ta-da, the next day...

PICTURES. eh, boys only. lols. cos we didnt take with the girls. kena neglected liao.


the picture is small. cos wk put the picture small. should be 'extended'. aww. anyway, the first time i exposed my picture, with a face, to the public hors. :x


emo emo emo. they wanted black and white, so wk took it. the skills of his woots.


this pic is so cool. i like to act seh. :x zi lian. another shot from wk. thanks! :D


WEIKANG !!! cool leh~~~ hohoho. i managed to take it down.


nothing much. just anyhow snap. *snap snap snap*


lastly, WEIKANGGGGGGGGGGGGG~~~. i took this shot. secretly de. HA. HA. HA.

- something   that i already know @ 9:57 PM |

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shacked !

aww. just woke up. ytd revised chem with alfie. thanks alot! i've got some alkanes and alkenes knowledge in my brain. the worst is, i was doing my math, the day before, from 10pm to 430am. AND woke up at almost 11am and rushed out to the lib. zzz. 12pm, study till 7.00pm? so tiring. went home. on the way, saw some BANGLA. zzz. went to buy some food to eat. sent alfie home cos of the BANGLA. zzz. they're so PERVERT. so, after sending, i walked home, my legs are so deadbeat becos of me. dad was home early. so, sat down and watch tv. makan. omg, i ate alot. i wont say it out. but ITS ALOT. my stomach was bloated. but in the end, also cannot grow fat. =( have a bathe. study SS till 3.00am? i went nuts after that cos my mind wandered off...to the past. so TIRED. sleep till now lor. then i just knew my monitor will burnt out. opened the cpu and check. it's ok now. my left hand knuckle got a scar. all becos of the mosquito bite. my hand is itchy and scratched it. people will think i punched the wall. poor left hand, that's gonna leave a scar on you. zzz. im talking to myself. LOLS. nvm. ARGH. later going out again. i must study my SS first then go out with no worries. ta-ta.

to all the girls.
BEWARE OF BANGLAS, THEY'RE PERVERTS.
ONCE YOU FELT BEING STARED,
GO KICK THEIR NUTS !


ok. im a bad person. i pierced, i smoke, i give attitude, i dont study, whatever bad you can think of me. im that bad. HAPPY NOW ?! =(

i can only use tears to express my feelings. words do not help anymore. they just dont help at all.

- something   that i already know @ 1:22 PM |

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yesterday night.

ok. im talking about the late midnight. it totally freaked me out. its about the nightmare i had. not dream, is nightmare, i supposed. im not going to elaborate any further. but typically, its about a child. lols. ok ehem, *serious*. what i've dreamt about is a child. i know this is the hungry ghost festival, or as called, the 7th month. hmm, maybe i've watched too much of creepy movies, as well as GORE! omg. and now im watching 'The Wig'. zzz. ok, im stopping this, dont wanna freak you people any further. btw also no people will read my blog. lols.

ytd went to SP for the open house? im always late. late late late. the francis talked. then break or buffet. then back for some further talk. it's rather boring. too boring. zzz. felt tired along the way. was supposed to go out later on. but arghhh. lols. cos i can proudly say that i didnt start any of my revision. staying at home is so boring. luckily, dajie went home quite early after me. so, that's a good thing cos i wont be that BORED. i didnt eat rice. but did eat quite alot of side dishes. that's not important. studying actually rocks. xD when one have nothing to do at home besides using the pc.

- something   that i already know @ 1:03 PM |

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teachers' day.

it has been long time ever since i've last blogged. well, i went to school as usual. class was in the needle work room. blah blah blah. then mrs retnam came in and talk talk talk. mdm vani came in, chatted. i just roughly typed out what she said. she said for all these years, there's no one skipped their prelims until this year. esp english, if you skipped or failed eng, you'll fail everything. i just know she was particularly saying it to me. i can hear that she almost cried in her talk. i didnt want to skip my prelim intentionally. even if i do it intentionally, it's also for the sake of my darn d&t. and i didnt revise my english and chinese paper. wtheck did i go to the exam for? wasting my time eventhough i do not know how to answer the question? ya, saying why other people can do d&t faster than me. tmd. i THINK i do until very detailed eh. people just scribbled off without any drawing or whatever shit. i ended up some blank pages. cos no time to do. zzz. btw, back to topic. she said and said, my mind started to wander off...into the past. that moment, i felt like f*cking walk out from the class. it's really saddening. i was rebellious these few days. sian. i almost did something wrong, do you know that? skipped school, skipped self-study. during recess, dont really talked much. after that was the performance, the sound system is really SO bad. the bell rang, backed to needle work room, packed and off.

went home. prepared. i was slow. way too slow. off the primary school.was with alfie to find mdm koh. hahahas, she dont remember me~ she was busy cos she was entertaining some students. so in the end, didnt went back to find her. so walked around, the girls came too. off to basketball court. blah blah blah. while walking back to the canteen, heard some instrument sounds, concert band? the room was SMALL! LOLS. silver for the past 2 years. oh god. went to the assembly ground. sat on the chair. waiting for weikang to come. he came and we're off to find lu lao shi and mrs kumar. we cant find the HOD room. now the room have shifted next to the staff room. im sure that i saw lu lao shi behind the 'board', she even moved her head to see who was looking thru the panel. lols. went in and we started chatting. she said she has shifted the 'board' so that no one will find her. nice try as we still found her. hahas. unable to find mrs kumar. missing in action. so we leave a note on her table. should have leave our handphone nos. off to find mrs mok, she was missing in action too.
me and weikang were supposed to go out of the school le, cos the time is up. so while going out of the school, mrs mok just came in. hurrays! she asked about our results. then we had to tell her. after the topic. she said that mr lu? the principal has changed. 6yrs of principal, he retired. now is the malay principal. she said that they're waiting for the government to approve re-building of dazhong. or i can say is renovate luh. if it is approved, the students have to move to other place to study temporary. the current dazhong alrd brought me back to the time where i used to be a nerd student. nerd as in study!!! i was surprised when she told me about this issue of renovating dazhong. after chatting, me and wk doesnt have time to walk around. awww, i want to walk around. :(
went out of school, saw the girls, and starting chatting. talked about gathering, again. after that, me and wk separated with them and acc aiting and huixian to mac, to buy their drinks. then separated again, me and wk off to imm. talk talk talk. off to 3rd floor, hey, nice view. so refresh-tioning. off to BEST and Challenger to see some pc stuffs. played PSP. see lappies. it was damn cool. talked alot along the way. sat down and watch '300' movie. AWESOME COOL. Spartans VS Persians. Spartans never retreat. Spartans never surrender. the movie is super-diculously make sense. in the end, the whole group of Spartans died. in the next generation, 30 000 Spartans VS 10 000 Persians. its SO MUCH. they said alot of phrases, and overall it's a nice movie. off to LP shop, OMG, DISCOUNTS !!! ok then went to eat. slack on the bridge. took bus home. along the way, started to chat about driving. vroom vroom ! hmm, bathe, ate. so bloated. and of course, i went to sleep. that's for sure.

* cant wait for the gathering, again.

** i will get stares almost everyday. as if ima freak to everyone.
so what if ima freak? do you think i want?
so what if im anti-social? do you think i want?
so what if im skinny? do you think i want?
so what if everybody looked down on me, i wont look down upon myself.
im not that type of person whom look down upon himself.

there are a lot of things, im yet to understand.

"Don't Love You No More (I'm Sorry)"

[VERSE 1]
For all the years that I've known you baby
I can't figure out the reason why lately you've been acting so cold
(didn't you say)
If there's a problem we should work it out
So why you giving me the cold shoulder now
Like you don't even wanna talk to me girl
(tell me)
Ok I know I was late again
I made you mad and dinners thrown in (the bin)
But why are you making this thing drag on so long
(I wanna know)
I'm sick and tired of this silly game
(silly games)
Don't think that I'm the only one here to blame
It's not me here who's been going round slamming doors
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.

[CHORUS]
Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

[VERSE 2]
I know that I made a few mistakes
But never thought that things would turn out this way
Cause I'm missing something now that your gone
(I see it all so clearly)
Me at the door with you in a state
(in a state)
Giving my reasons but as you look away
I can see a tear roll down your face
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.

[CHORUS]
Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

[BRIDGE]
Don't say those words it's so hard
They turn my whole world upside down
Girl you caught me completely off guard
On the night you said to me
I just don't love you more.

[CHORUS 2X]
Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

- something   that i already know @ 10:07 PM |

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jsn124@hotmail.com
dazhong pri sch
yuhua sec sch

being quiet is what i like.
so don't find me a weirdo,
you can see me very quiet.
maybe 'not-so-active' can be used to describe me.
as well as being solitary, sometimes.
lastly, whatever.
从此以后，就算再痛，我也不会啃一声。
***
i may be sad,
but im not weak
i'll stand
from where i fell,
& start over.
i'll fight,
& i'll be strong,
inside.

being quiet
solitary moments
SLEEP!
lips of an angel
my PC
my ZEN V
my junks
my PILLOW!
my FAMILY!
playing pool
EVERYTHING!

GRADUATE from yuhua secondary school
GET INTO A POLY !!!
PASS O-LEVEL L1R4 LESS THAN 13 POINTS
self-enrichment books [hmm, think about it]
fictional books
a laptop, of cos. :D
somewhere i would like to go to. ;)
must grow fat? LOLS!
more clothes!
more pants!
converse jacket
converse shoes?
new wallet
SERIOUSLY NEED A PSP/PSP SLIM! :x
SATA 160GB external HDD!
Genius G-Pen 340
a new life
HAPPY! :D
me andyou. :)

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